Burden of the past!

A contemptuous start.
Cute impressions.
Slow attractions.
Sudden impulses.
Wicked temptations.
Hurried actions.
Deliberate deeds.
Immense pleasures.
"Sweet yet Bitter"
Secrets revealed.
Facts denied.
Lies.
Suspicions.
"The Truth"
Unwilling confessions.
Heart break.
Betrayal.
Lost trust.
Endless pleads and apologies.
Insecurity.
Pain.
Anger.
Hatred.
Ignorance.
Sorrow.
Questions unanswered.
"The Untimely,Uninvited guest"
Anguish.
Repentance.
Guilt,
Forever...

-Archana.

Highway on my turbulent emotional torrent

I don't know whom to trust now.
Every time i trusted someone,i was let down.
What do i do to have the buoyancy?
Do i follow my instincts behind me?
No matter how hard i try to disguise the pain,
its revealed as the worst weaknesses that ever remains.
On my drenched pillow,i lay insomniac...
I fake my expressions to you,
fooling myself for so long,so true.
Everything you've said to me is nothing but a myth,i realize.
The best of all the false,
being the one u often told me,in clause.
I loved every time i heard it.
Until ignorance gave you bliss
and loneliness gave me a kiss.
For the last time now,
i would trust myself,somehow.

-Archana.

A Fading Heart

For what you don't know,is killing me inside.
For what you didn't do,is what I need to confide.

My feelings for you haven't just vanished into the night,
For it is your hand I wish to hold tight.

Sad emotions enter my mind,
Searching for answers, still longing to find.

Commitment was the word we did not say,
That's why this heart is fading away.

-Archana.

(N)everlasting happiness..

Like a butterfly,it eludes when chased,
but sits softly on our shoulders,unattended.

Like a star flickering on a cloudy night,
it tries to illumine the space around.

Like a thunderbolt,jolting from the skies,
giving joggles every time it strikes.

Like a flower,the one day beauty,
blooms at dawn and withers at dusk.

Like a bird,it flies away,
when its flock migrates their autumn flyway.

Like a river's streaming flows,
it moves away,unstamped on the same waters again.

Hence,the blissful feeling of contentment,
happiness is never everlasting.

-Archana.

Life as a loner..

When theres no one around to talk,
In this journey,alone i would walk.

Sharing my laughter and tears,
All by myself,without any fear.

But there'll be no one to laugh along,
Nor a shoulder to cry upon.

Why do they leave me alone?
the people who,to me were once known.

What if i had never let them go?
Would they be the same people i ever knew?

-Archana.

SUFFOCATION

Everything changes with time.
Habits to addictions,
Beauty allures and sags,

Bonds are made,
some fade,some break.
Some repent,some don't.
Who do,they suffer yet recover.
Who don't,they are strangled forever.

I jilt,lately,
realizing my eventful acts,taking all the pleasures.
Unthoughtful of hurting and being hurt.
Ethically imbalanced,i stand an enigma to myself.

Paranoid,i lurk;longing for asylum.
Vulnerably,i whinge to the walls,unheard.
Having traumatized to another betrayal,
toxicated completely.En masse,i live dead.

-Archana

Life is like a Boat...

Nobody knows who i really am,
I never felt this empty before.
And if i ever need someone to come along,
who's gonna comfort me and keep me strong?

The journey will still go on..
even on the quietest days,
Along with the passing clouds,
Allowing a slight shimmer upon...

After the moon completes its phase,
it will shine light upon,with grace.
I pray and wait for the new day to come,
until it arrives across the vividly sparkling ocean.

-Archana