Highway on my turbulent emotional torrent

I don't know whom to trust now.
Every time i trusted someone,i was let down.
What do i do to have the buoyancy?
Do i follow my instincts behind me?
No matter how hard i try to disguise the pain,
its revealed as the worst weaknesses that ever remains.
On my drenched pillow,i lay insomniac...
I fake my expressions to you,
fooling myself for so long,so true.
Everything you've said to me is nothing but a myth,i realize.
The best of all the false,
being the one u often told me,in clause.
I loved every time i heard it.
Until ignorance gave you bliss
and loneliness gave me a kiss.
For the last time now,
i would trust myself,somehow.

-Archana.